Therapoetic

RIP

2007-02-07T00:48:00.000-08:00

I love you too much it's so unhealthy
I love you too much it's damaging me
I love you too much it's mind destroying
I love you too much it's eating me alive
As we speak...

Stay

2006-09-24T23:19:00.000-07:00

Around the world I fly
In these beautiful wings I try
To search for perfection
My mind and heart desires

Across the moon and stars
Back and forth still I find
Always been here and there
Coz with you I’m everywhere

My world is my passion
My being is my desire
Wrapped by your glam and beauty
You make me complete and free

I Love You

2006-09-13T06:04:00.000-07:00

I might not say this often enough
But you,
I love forever and always

Don't stop

2006-09-10T22:46:00.000-07:00

Keep haunting me in my dreams
Keep talking to me in my sleep
Keep watching me in my mind
Keep reminding me...
Keep me...

2006-09-10T22:44:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry

Please forgive me....

2006-08-20T10:12:00.000-07:00

So this is it?
It's going to be like this?
Every second?
Every minute?
Every day?
Forever?
And always?

I have to live with this?
This...overwhelming, bizarre, unexplainable feeling?
Which constantly squeezing my poor little heart?
For God's sake...
Sometimes I'm not sure I can...

Loving every seconds that I'm with you
Loving your stupid silliness
Loving your terrible singing
Loving your harmful hairdo

Loving every inch of you

Sometime I do think
That this...is just a bit too much for me to handle

2006-08-03T00:25:00.000-07:00

Kalau nanti saatnya tiba
kamu bukan lagi sekedar tubuh yang ku peluk

Kamu akan jadi aku
aku akan jadi kamu
dan dia jadi kita

Help me help you

2006-07-17T07:48:00.000-07:00

Bukankah di antara kita selalu berbagi
Tak ada yang tersisa, tak ada yang tersembunyi
Tapi kenapa sekarang kamu membisu
Membiarkan aku kebingungan di sudut sepi

Katanya sayangmu melebihi ruang dan waktu
Tak akan habis dan tak akan pernah ada yang lain
Tapi buat apa kalau sekarang kamu masih sembunyi
Tak mengungkapkan isi hati yang menumpuk di lubuk itu

Aku ingin kamu tahu
Apa pun itu, yang membuat galau hatimu
Bisa kamu tumpahkan padaku
Dan aku akan menampungnya sebisaku
Meski aku harus terkubur oleh debu

You???

2006-07-17T07:24:00.000-07:00

What??
Are those things true??
The things I heard about you??
Impossible as it may seems
But I guess it's true
So weird
I thought I know all about you
I thought there's nothing dark about you
Turned out to be true
All those horrible things about you

..........

2006-07-10T21:43:00.000-07:00

What I really hate now is time
Why can't it move faster
Or just let me be
And get the hell out of me
Instead of taking me further away
To uncertainty and confusion

RIP

2005-12-15T23:35:00.000-08:00

Bila nanti aku mati
Ku ingin kau tangisi beribu hari
Meratapi tibanya hari
Dimana hidupmu selamanya terusik sunyi
Karena tiada lagi aku di sini

Bila ternyata usai mimpi kita
Ku ingin kau sambut adanya asa
Karena adaku tak akan pernah sirna
Bersamamu di sisi selamanya

Namun akan tiba satu masa
Kau merasa hampa dan mati rasa
Kau cari aku
Dan aku tak akan pernah ada

Ada

2005-12-11T22:43:00.000-08:00

Kecewa itu akan selalu ada
Merasuki jauh ke dasar hati
Menoreh luka yang tak akan pernah sirna
Selalu ada menghantui setiap masa
Senyum yang tersungging sesaat saja
Tak akan pernah bahagia sebelum semua mimpi jadi nyata

Salahkah menyimpan angan untuk kesenangan?
Bayangkan semuanya menjadi nyata

Why the sad face?

2005-11-30T22:57:00.000-08:00

If there's still heavy rain in a flowery fairy tale
and a big hole in a full and stuffed heart,
why not?
If there's still a tear in a cheerful soul
and silence in the merriest fanfare,
why not?
If there's still a bitter sound in a hilarious laugh
and numbness in a forceful motion,
then once again I would ask;

why not?

Don't try to comfort me

2005-11-30T22:54:00.000-08:00

As much as you think you can understand me, you don't.
And perhaps you never will be.
Ever find the time to think that maybe I don't want you to?
Save my time and yours and just be quiet.
Don't try to talk me out of these things I do because I already chose to.
If I wanted to walk in the dark, so let me take that stroll.
If I wanted to wear out my brain by thinking of it, so let me be.
If I wanted the things that I can never have, let me keep that dream.
If I wanted you to comfort me, I'll come to you and ask.

In the mean time, respect of what I'm doing.
Otherwise just stay out of my way.

Memo

2005-09-30T01:27:00.000-07:00

You're miles away but I can still hear your heart beats
Coz it's so close to mine, every second, every day

No more peace, nothing is quiet
For all the things that I've heard
They're all wrong, none is comforting
All noise, perfect distortion, banging all together
This much of a pain, I don't know how much more I can take
....................................................................I miss you

I could stare at you all night
That's when I find serenity in my heart
When all the things that led to perfection come together in one place
it becomes you
As you are my love, my life
my all and my soul

10 Things I Hate About You

2005-09-30T01:25:00.000-07:00

I hate the way you talk to me
and the way you do your hair
I hate the way you drive your car
and the way you make me scared
I hate your cool shirts and shoes
and the way you read my mind
I hate it when you're always right
and when you choose not to tell
I hate it when you make me laugh
even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you're not around
and the fact that you don't so often call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
not even close, not even a little bit
not even at all

....

2005-07-27T01:30:00.000-07:00

Hi love....
Are you there?
Or is it just me feeling you so close to me...
Are you really near or is it just me wanting you to be here so badly?
I'd give million stars away just to know when you will be with me
By then I would tell the world I am yours forever and eternity

Komisches Gefuehl

2005-07-15T01:32:00.000-07:00

Kann nicht aushalten nicht zu lächeln
Muß immer an ihn denken
Tausende Schmetterlinge im Bauch herumfliegen
Seine wörte hundertmal gelesen
Das Herz schneller und schneller klopfen
Darf nicht so komisch zu fühlen
Doch kann kaum erwarten ihn wiederzusehen

Was zu tun wenn ihn im Auge sehen?
Was zu sagen wenn er vor mir sitzen?
Ach..was soll den das bedeuten?
Keine größe Fehler es ein bißchen zugenießen...
Oder doch?

*&^% Patient!

2005-07-13T01:34:00.000-07:00

I was told to be patient. That the power of mind plays a very big role after all.
I was told to be positive. That there's always a better tomorrow.
I was told to be brave. That whatever happens, it would happen for the best.
That the silver lining is everywhere...
If I would just wait and lighten up...

???

2005-04-19T01:42:00.000-07:00

Alone amidst the green grass under the pale moon and shooting stars...

I watch as you talk and walk.

There...up above the dark sky you look down to me with a smile as sweet as those loving eyes.

It seems so perfect. The night seems perfect. You seems perfect.

Yet there's a big lack.

A hole filled with emptiness which i can not describe.

Tearing the happiness inside.

Leaving hollow eyes and empty heart...

"sometime in April 2004"

I heart You

2005-04-15T01:36:00.000-07:00

I love you

That’s all I can say

That’s all I can feel

Though the timing seems random

But I know it’s for real

Sometimes I want to kiss you

Sometimes I want to hug you

Many times I want to make love to you

But sometimes all I want is just to look at you

That’s when I feel my feeling is real

That’s when I know I did the right thing

That’s when I always shed a tear

What a gift God has given me

So beautiful, so pure and sincere

I must have done something good

Because now I have you in my world

Lombok, April 21, 2005

Hollow

2004-04-01T01:41:00.000-08:00

Emptiness that I feel is what's left inside.

Hollow as the darkness with glimpses of weak lights

What's worth fighting for is what's still left behind.

Why care? Why there?